Bipolar personality disorder "Manic Depression", or Mood Disorder and I

I have Bipolar "Manic Depression", a disorder mood!

Just at this very moment I am in such a bad state of depression I went down minutes off and thought of dying! how nice it would be get rid of this horrible feeling crappy and dark to get away from this state of mind. Think logically, all I want to do is curl up in my warm bed and sleep forever! in other words die. This is how I feel right now, this day, this second, beautiful! and for some of you will seem like I'm reading your mind where, as for others I do not think you have no idea what I'm talking about and jump to the conclusion that I am stupid or crazy! but I have a gift like this. Once you have this bipolar disorder or mood disorder, you are able to understand many other people, but unfortunately some people do not understand, something I have experienced in my past.

The work is in my mind as I begin to hate going down once I do. The boss has no idea how to treat me like a normal guy, much less having to deal with this. The Her crime? Well, the wife has depression then yes you would think so, but I can not keep my mental illness against him. I hate the words "mental illness" so umm how his mind! Not a single person would have raised an eyebrow in a boy with a broken leg or arm, but say the magic words "mental illness" and a lot of people are too preoccupied and may even avoid, but I think I have more people skills and care for others that most! in my opinion.

I feel very isolated, very alone, but in a way I need this as When the depression is bad you can not face the world. I had to go out for food supplies were low, only to be so evil as a large grocery store that I left my half of the cart full of food and left. Friends do not really know what to do and I do not want to grieve over them, but I wish they could see the signs all say and do not fall into the wrong things for me that only runs up to me and make me sink even more in depth was poor.

Manic depression is a big problem for many people suffering with her condition. Being depressed is already depression severe enough and I mean real, not just saying that these people feel depressed as the rabbit is dead! There is no reason that the medical world can be agree with others that could be in the genes or a physical problem of the brain. There are trigger points that can bring this up and these can be small things, as an argument with someone or frustration. I over the past three years as a rule with an employer as after this time I feel so frustrated with how things are done or not done or not to be heard, starting off my depression. If you have an understanding employer! they could help, but unfortunately this is rare.

It makes me laugh and make me angry when I hear something, the words "I'm so depressed" when a person has just lost a bet £ 10 or break a nail or has had a great bill from the garage! Stop using this "depression" word in the wrong place! You'll get over it and dam fast I would think. There is depression organic I believe and inorganic, organic, when you are born or develop over time, where as inorganic is when you lose your wallet or the like. I do not use the word depression in this way because is so far from reality.

I know some people who suffer from depression myself and not a joke, it takes more than your mind and being and even knowing that it will pass in time, we still want to die! while your going through it.

Mania

Me though, I not only get the side to down, oh no, I have to swing until the end with the other Mania! oh yes, a bloody double whammy of high and low and up and over and bloody again! And this is when you are trying to work your work and enjoy friends and hold a relationship! Still single at 41 and I can not see a girl who want to manage a guy like me with the emotional baggage! You can? Although I liked many just cannot let anyone how I feel bipolar will drive them away at some point.

Bi-Polar (Manic Depression) or any mood disorder is a thorn in the side of anyone and caused no end of emotional pain in my life since I was about 16, so I was told by doctors. This is why I think the way I do and why so many people get right on my nerves with the way they behave! let me swap with you please ….

Yes, I'm really good in my cycle of depression and so I had to take a week off work and holiday, no sick time left and that is paid is all my holiday went. Great way to spend it! stay at home to die! I have so much fun I tell you its amazing … But, as I just wrote that line and I feel sorry for me, popped in the children and wives of dead children being returned to the British Army in Wootton Bassett in Wiltshire. Now that makes me feel bad for feeling bad! I must sink below ………. I hate this bloody ass biscuits, where the bloody knife sharp left … ok ok will have a cup of tea first. I have to joke to my health mental.

So there is a very very very small on the site as just the nature of depressive bi-polar you get. The side handle is not better as I went bankrupt, homeless and I'm shocked friends and my closest family members. I had a lot of sexual partners! So a sort of lift I think some of you may think but Nah, not really when his lust only from vacuum mania. Love is what we need, but its hard to find.

However next week I will be talking of my left buttock! Do not miss the beauty:) Until then the chin and if you have depression right now, like me, just jump off a bridge or watching eastenders for a night !!!!!!!!!!!!! oh the thought of that … Yes' was a joke on the bridge. It's no fun for most, but for me it is a dig at how I feel.

On a positive note is that I'm trying different things to help these states of mind. Walking along the banks of my local river is excellent, fresh air and beautiful views helps me focus. Are really enthusiastic and got in hypnotherapy in some ways. Watching "the development of other brain system," and I will write more about it once I think his work.

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